💕Calling in the One: Day 12
My Woundology Biography:
I was born in to a family, where on both sides, emotional needs went unfulfilled. There was no one to blame. It's just that other needs took priority-- like making sure the large families had a place to live and food to eat. The emotionally sensitive had a harder time of things, but in a way, it's a luxury to have this awareness because survival has been taken care of.
In my innocence, and out of intense love & a longing to belong, I chose to carry the emotional baggage of my parents, believing that I alone could transmute it. I also believed that taking on this weight, love would be guaranteed. When my mother went to the hospital to have my brother, I was 14 months old and was not able to understand why she left, so I was frightened and felt abandoned. This break in the bond initiated the deepest wound that I would have to bear. It created mistrust, desperation, neediness, and a sense of hopelessness that I had to heal.
As I began to understand the actual source of my woundedness (this break in the bond), I understood what actually needed to heal. Now, I am able to address the actual problem that simply snowballed! Constellation work has shown me my mother's POV, her intense, all-consuming love for me, and her helplessness at being rejected by me due to this perceived abandonment. During my session yesterday, it became clear that she loved me so much, but didn't know how to reach me, so she gave up and felt completely helpless.
Now that I'm in the process of healing these deep-seated issues, I am able to help other people who aren't finding fulfillment get to the core issue and work through it! This is the meaning I can give this pain, which instantly transforms it. I'm also deeply compassionate and able to love and care for others in a way that they've most likely never experienced!
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Warmest Wishes, Rachael