💕Calling in the One: Day 46
The Challenge of Forgiveness!
Wow! My work on forgiveness has been a long, rough road. After all, I am a redheaded Italian, which means that by nature I am quick to anger and slow to cool. Anger and resentment have been such huge burdens for me because I denied and suppressed them for such a huge part of my life -- not really feeling entitled to experience either and, as a result, not properly releasing them. So, they would inevitably turn inward and burn me alive. But, you know, it starts with a slow simmer, so you barely notice at first. Before you know it, you're fully consumed. Katherine Woodward Thomas had us list anyone that we harbor anger and/or resentment towards and why. We then reviewed the list and asked if we were able to release anyone, including ourselves, from any grudges that we currently hold.
I have to say that now that I'm living alone -- for the first time ever (just moved into my own space) -- I'm finding my personal rhythm again. This has made me far less irritable, stressed, frustrated, and angry. I'm also in a city with a much slower pace than NYC, so I'm in a far more resourceful state for examining my thoughts and feelings to prevent attachment to them. This feels like a very reflective time as I assimilate into a new space and a new place in my life. Looking back at all of the experiences, friends, healing, awareness, skills, wisdom, and love that I have stored in my heart, I feel far richer than when I set out to take over Broadway 12 years ago. I was so afraid to leave that city because I thought that I'd be losing all of those things. I didn't realize that they'd be forever imprinted in my heart. So, forgiveness as well as gratitude are in abundance for me right now.
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Warmest Wishes, Rachael