- Rachael Marie Shaffer, RMT
ð« Soul Coaching: Day 8

I just recorded a very long vlog for today's topic, and realized that it would probably be best to bullet point this one... Don't worry, I go into every detail in the vlog below. ð So, we're looking at turning points in our lives, the effects they've had on us, and the recurring emotions that we have experienced. Here's a few of mine:
â¡Break in the bond with my mother at 14 months, initiated a lifelong battle with mistrust, emotional instability, fear, caution, despair that I have pretty much healed through Family Constellation Therapy, after learning that break in the bond was a thing about a year ago.
â¡Watching my father through the window leaving for work, banging on the glass and crying at 3-years-old. He was working full time and going to night school to achieve his masters in business administration. From a 3-yr-old's perspective, I was abandoned by the person that I loved most in the world. Felt deep sadness, longing, and guilt around not being able to make him stay. This created a deep wound as well. I thought that if I took on the emotional baggage of my parents that love would be assured to me and that I alone could transmute it. It's what put me on the path to understand human behavior, relationship equity, and spiritual healing.
â¡I read the book Embraced by the Light in senior year of high school, about a woman who had a near death experience, saw the afterlife, and came back to talk about it, I was obsessed. I felt like, wow, someone has all of the answers! I really liked that. Due to my initial wounding of the break in the bond with my mother, certainty had become my number one priority, and I valued and admired people that had answers. It initiated a quest for spiritual truth that I'm still on to this day, although now, I value the unknown and unanswered questions because of another turning point that I discuss in the vlog below.
âDid you play full out? What are some of the recurring emotions in your life? Mine are overwhelm, joy, frustration, anger, and shame (although I don't experience much shame at all anymore. Thank goodness!)
xo Rachael