- Rachael Marie Shaffer, RMT
💫 Soul Coaching: Day 17

Such an interesting and odd day today! How are you feeling? I was feeling very ill this morning and couldn't get out of bed. I later learned that the outside of my apartment was sprayed to deter and get rid of the stinkbug issue. We were told not to have our air conditioners running at the time that the spraying was happening, but were not told when they would be doing so. I woke up with a stuffed up nose, sore throat, and puffy eyelids. Feeling horrible, I went back to sleep. Later on, I learned that they had sprayed this morning. Great. Guess a detox will be in my near future. I say this because of the first exercise of replacing "could" for "should". I really thought to myself "I should get out of bed right now. I have so much to do." Feeling so awful, I just could not function. After reading the chapter, I turned it into "I could get out of bed right now, but I choose not to." I did this with a few other "shoulds" -- just amplifying the feeling of choice and choosing our lives.
I didn't feel that I had any skeletons or secrets eating away at me. I'm fairly open when I feel it's appropriate and healthy for me to be, as you can tell. LOL! As far as my sexual history and sexual awakening, if you're really that curious about it, I shared a bit in my vlog (below). I danced my shadow qualities, which I actually am in the habit of dancing out my anger and aggression to discharge. It was an interesting experience to connect to those qualities through movement. And dancing my light qualities was so joyful and fun! I've never really done that before. I usually use dance therapeutically to express from and connect to my lower chakras (grounding, sensuality, and personal power/ boundaries), but to also connect with my higher self through movement was such an effective and worthwhile activity, I will definitely be doing so more frequently! What was your experience with today's activities? See you tomorrow!
xo Rachael